The Talk

Yesterday, Mister M and I sorta had ‘the talk’ (through text messages and emails).

Well, it started off with emails and every time he teases me or something, I’d always say I hate you. He then replied that he didn’t care coz he’s in love with me and there’s nothing I can do about what he feels and I just told him to quit it with his crap. He told me that he was serious it’s just hard to prove coz of all the walls that need to be broken down. Anyways, I just didn’t comment about it anymore.

We talked about going on holiday together in December (only during the flight though since he’ll be going to the Philippines and me in Singapore, but he is willing to stay in Singapore for a few days) but I told him that I haven’t decided yet if I’ll be going on holiday in December since I really planned not to this year. I told him we’d just go somewhere else some other time. =) But he's still trying to persuade me to go in December.

In the evening when I got home, we were sending text messages to each other and we were just fooling around and all when the conversation got kinda serious. He asked me if I didn’t like the idea of him falling in love with me and I told him it’s just really hard to say coz of his situation. He said that I am a lovely person and that I make him complete when he’s with me. He said that he does not want to lose me but he can’t promise me anything and he’d rather let me go than hurt me in the end. I replied, ‘I know, I’d risk getting hurt… for now…’

I know that I’m insane for actually telling him that but that’s just what I felt then and what I wanted to say…

Oh well, I guess I’m just really one crazy stupid person! *sigh*