Sign...

Yesterday was a pretty good day! =) After so long of not communicating much, Mister M and I were exchanging emails the whole day.

Apparently, he didn’t receive the last text I sent him the night before explaining why Mister E went shopping with me and LJ and the reason why I didn’t receive his email was coz he had attached pictures to it and my office email can’t receive emails over 2MB.

Even after telling him what my last text was he still said, ‘still… I’m jealous…’ and I told him, as a joke, that it’s coz he had to be somewhere else that night. I said we could meet up on Saturday and he was glad about it but that he wasn’t sure if he could make it or not.

You see, Mister M actually has ‘partner’ and 2 kids. I know that I’m stupid to be involved with a family man, but, I don’t know… he just makes me feel so special and there’s just this connection between us… I guess. My friends keep telling me that it’s wrong, which I know it is, but *sigh* I’m just really cracked! He usually goes home really late from work or if he does leave work early, he goes somewhere to hang out and he’s also usually out of the house on weekends. He says that he thinks he’s not really happy with his family. He sounds like a real a**hole, I know…

Anyways, he told me the reason why he might not be able to meet me on Saturday is coz his family will be leaving for the Philippines by the end of the September and this would be for good. So I told him that it’s fine and to just spend time with them. I asked him why they’re leaving but he told me that he’d tell me when we meet up. The first thing that came to mind was coz he’s planning to relocate to Qatar as he’s got a really good job offer there but apparently he’s not decided yet.

He called me yesterday evening and he just said that he wanted to tell me that he misses me. After that I didn’t know how I felt… didn’t know if I was happy or sad… I think this would just be cleared out once we talk.

For the past few days I’ve just been missing him so much… just wanting to see him and spend some time with him. I think he feels the same way.

I hope he makes it tomorrow… I’m asking for a sign… if he turns up tomorrow, well, it means that our ‘relationship’ has a chance and if not, well… =(