First Post

Yesterday I was going through a blog that I've created ages ago. I haven't posted anything for the past 3 years and while going through it, I realized that I don't even remember some of them anymore!

I told a dear friend of mine, Mare, about this and she suggested that I start blogging again... so, here I am!

I'd usually blog about how trapped I feel since I am a single mother of a very beautiful baby girl and living with an over protective family. I guess it’s for my own good though… when I was younger I got all the freedom that I wanted and looked what happened! :)

Well, my baby stays with my parents now in another part of the world and after 3 years of pouring all my attention to my baby, I’ve started hanging out and spending time with my friends again. I thought, ‘Great! I have a life again!’, but don’t get me wrong, I sooo miss my baby and I’d trade my life now just to be with her again. I get to spend a couple of weeks with her every 6 months, but it is still never enough. Friends ask me why don’t I just relocate, I’d love to, but then again there are so many things to consider. So I guess for now I’d just have to cope with the situation.

I recently went to visit my baby last month and for the first time in 2 years, I’ve spent a whole month with her. A few days before I was due to leave, I’d told her that I had to go and we’d count the days together, I always do this so it’s not a shock to her that I have to leave her again and she’s usually fine with me leaving and all. The night before I left, she started crying and was telling me that she didn’t want me to go coz she would miss me so I had to make some promises to her before she agreed and fell asleep. I call her everyday and everyday she’d tell me that she’s crying coz she misses me. :(

Oh well, I guess sacrifices have to be made even if it breaks your heart… :(