Middle of the Night

The Issue
Why?! Why does he always do that?! Why does he rattle my brain with mind-boggling text messages in the middle of the night, in between my sleep and when I'm eventually wide awake replying to the messages, he just quiets down! It is sooo frustrating! Not that I have the right to demand...

The Solution
Hmmm... I'm gonna start switching off my phone at night... well, maybe for a couple of nights?!? :)

First Post

Yesterday I was going through a blog that I've created ages ago. I haven't posted anything for the past 3 years and while going through it, I realized that I don't even remember some of them anymore!

I told a dear friend of mine, Mare, about this and she suggested that I start blogging again... so, here I am!

I'd usually blog about how trapped I feel since I am a single mother of a very beautiful baby girl and living with an over protective family. I guess it’s for my own good though… when I was younger I got all the freedom that I wanted and looked what happened! :)

Well, my baby stays with my parents now in another part of the world and after 3 years of pouring all my attention to my baby, I’ve started hanging out and spending time with my friends again. I thought, ‘Great! I have a life again!’, but don’t get me wrong, I sooo miss my baby and I’d trade my life now just to be with her again. I get to spend a couple of weeks with her every 6 months, but it is still never enough. Friends ask me why don’t I just relocate, I’d love to, but then again there are so many things to consider. So I guess for now I’d just have to cope with the situation.

I recently went to visit my baby last month and for the first time in 2 years, I’ve spent a whole month with her. A few days before I was due to leave, I’d told her that I had to go and we’d count the days together, I always do this so it’s not a shock to her that I have to leave her again and she’s usually fine with me leaving and all. The night before I left, she started crying and was telling me that she didn’t want me to go coz she would miss me so I had to make some promises to her before she agreed and fell asleep. I call her everyday and everyday she’d tell me that she’s crying coz she misses me. :(

Oh well, I guess sacrifices have to be made even if it breaks your heart… :(